food taste sour in my mouth yesterday, i was not in the mood for ice-cream.
i get the feeling of non exsistance again. i will never know what people think of me, some times i wish i could dig in their hearts to take a better look. how frustrating, i can't wait till i get out of this mess. i want to run away, from all of this. this is wearing me down slowly, i can't catch up.
i mess up dinner today. i hope my parents wont notice. i am a terrible cooker when it comes to patience. i dread going back to school, i dread go back to visit my grandparents. i dread of everything. i can't feel joy in me lasting more then 12 hours recently, i feel like i am going to be sick.