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so who is thinking of eating ice-cream? haha this pictures show that the opposite way, the ice-cream are eating us!yah we are yummy. (nuts)
有一天我会在跟你说的，我们不能一直在你的身边，我们不是你所想的那么厉害，能
看透你的心灵。我们是人，不是什么魔法师，不是你所想象中的完美朋友。我们已经
尽了力帮你了，但其它的全靠你了。可是我们唯一能做的事是等你，等你想通了，等
你说你决定说出你想说的话，决定把一切的一切放开。那时我们还会在你的身边陪着
你，和你把一切的事放开。我们相信你能做得到.
i am seriously tired cause i just got home like around 10.30? then i must do all my art work and homework. so i do not , refuse to post any songs this month so sorry peeps so PLEASE DON'T MISS ME!:D yes and i really hate to fucking bitch, if anybody wanna know what happen i will glady tell you and you may hate her too. i really can get bitchy sometimes:D haha. i am tired. this month is a hell to shu yi no HELL TO EVERYBODY month. working alot and i do not have the time to touch my baby :D (the computer) so.. sorry again peeps , i am busy so i can't squeeze time to find some super nice songs for you. i do not even have the to time to watch my shows. D: life now officially sucks! please my dear lord, bring me ou tof this misery as sson as possible! okay erm, back to me. i am tired, i am talking crap, and what else, actually nothing really,now is 12.20? i need to do my art? my physic home work and what? oh! i break the record of getting late:D! 9.30 then i steep in the class:D awsome~! i really was irritated that pei yi managed to convince me to go school earlier then what i aim for. damn it :D haha okay now what, right no picture huh, it is because i am tired! i need to type this as fast as possible so i can do my work so bye peeps!( need to go school earlier then usually)
WAIT! sorry people that i may be forgettful this month due to busy! i am be forgettful, irritated, stress and most likely to go mad so please bear with me.if you are irritated by me, walk away.
okay:D now it is my life, i am in a i am very hyper active on a crazy and dangerous mood today, i am ready to kill her the bitch i really hate and now offically regreated to talk to her. now i shall ignore her for most of the time till i managned to forgive her. that bitch. that fucking idiotic slut. i really hate her, really hate her backstab, really hate myself for atlking to her. now all i wanna do is to take her down . i am really piss off. forget it i can't get anything form her anyway.
i am not really surprise that ome people just wanna everything to stop, i saw this picture then wanted to post it here telling everyone that i am not turning to some shrimp. :D instead i am trying to tell everyone (yeah basically my friends) that bad things don't stop the way you wanna them too, instead embrace them, rather to think negativly and face the shit you are having now:D embracing means to love what you have now and slowly think that this is something that you must get through, pass by let it happen if it will happen sooner or later, some thims life sucks i know that but you and i have no choice (basically god rules) so let it be you can't do anything after you tried cause it is out of reach unless you are those type of super on and want to try try again:D so peeps let it be, don't blame yourself if it is not your fault or don't be mad at anything, just relax:D this month has been a really bad month.
not in a good mood, tried to be kinder to maine in the sms, when she kept pressuring me. tried to be kinder to her, instead i cut my father off, now i feel bad. i feel like tearing up myself cause i got hurt by her words, i did not say anything, refuse to say and succeed in pushing my words back into my throat. i have been really busy, too many things happen to me, i refuse to speak up and now very thing seems to diffucult or stress to me. i felt like crying which i have not been like million years. people probably think why don't you speak up, i rather jump to death then say, i could never say it out, i don't have the courage. i feel really emotionally over loaded, if i say too much or cry too much people will say something about me, which i am damn fucking sensitive about it. people will probably think i am just one of the happy go lucky, thick skin girl, yeah right, like i do not cry like that. very very tired, very very stress, dying soon, i don't feel like meeting main tomorow cause i am afraid i will suddenly break up with out explaing why am i crying suddenly. i felt like dying. emotion tangle , feel like puking my dinner out now, and i have more stuff to handle.
everything feels as if it is my fault, no it is my fault that i did not check the address properly. i really feel stress
this is probably what i wanted when my fellow classmates work with me for the CNY decorations. i wanted peeps to bring some recycle material but i do not have the guts to say it out, thus all i have to depened on is me. i said some thing dense again , but this time it is funny not hurting people. i went crazy all of the sudden when i met xiu ling, i don't know what's gotten into me. Probably the sweet i took, the sugar rush, the maddness, just like yesterday. include the chillis i ate yesterday i think, cause i gobble up four to five saurcer of chilli. i wonder since when i am so found of eating chilli sauce? i prefer the real chilli.
if you ask me what life is all about, i think it is like a merry go round. it spins and stops when it failed and continue to spin again. this continue again and again like life with failure and the happy kiddos in there are like sugar, the moments of happy signs in life. But eventually it wears out, it will slow down and down and down, the kids continue to disappeared as they found a newer merry go round. eventually it will be left alone , deserted and filled with happy memories. slowly the last sign of life disappear, vanish, thus leaving the sweet moments of life.
everything was not what i use to think, it seems like only studies revolve around me now. i feel so cock up that i can't stand it. i really feel stress.i have been really busy recently, can't even find the time to touch my computer. the work i have within was not that much for homeowrk. but it feels like i am suffocating. i really want this to end as soon as posible. i am still dreading on going back to malaysia. can i please don't go? everything seems so mess up, i have been in a emotional unstable road. too much things i do not wanna know or see. too much thinking will hurt my brain. if i look closer to it i am afraid i will fall. everything seems so different from reality in here than what i tried to fake in the real world. stab me, punch me electricfy me i still can't feel a thing. this is so fucking fantastic.
if i scolded any one please put up with me for a little while, i promise to get back as soon as possible.
