i suddenly felt something. i am so out of reach. i don't go out, i don't take photos, i felt i missed everything, loney loney loney. it felt as if i been cast aside. kinda sad that people show me photos together that they had fun outside when i can't go out. it is kinda sad that i am pitying myself now, i will probably cry and wet my beb with tears tonight, ha. it is kinda sad that everybody looks for other people but not me, i probably the only one feeling this, i guess. it's really kinda sad that some people only find me when they need me. it's really kinda sad that my blog is always about nothing, that is probably the reason that i am not exciting. may be it is really my fault that i am so far away from them, i tried but failed.
may be i should stop caring for them once in a while and think i should be a little selfish, can i be a little selfish? or may be i am selfiash all along.