this shall be the place where i vent my anger on, people won't gossip about here anyway. i am easily forgotten, i hope nobody mistaken about this sentence. i hope that my everyday smile really convince you that i am really sometimes always that happy. i was never angry longer then five minutes, took much of the blame when things happen, i do feel cheated sometimes, what i am just another person they soon will forget. i can be as annoying as i can be to other people, which leaves only a small impression to them. i don't really wanna be in a place where i get lots of attention, so i can't plan out my everyday and every time move like a lunatic. i can only sometimes be myself when i am truly alone. i am not the kind of person who's just plain stupid, i know things that i just pretend not to know. it is a habit, please do not be offened. but i do really feel left out even i tried my best to fit in, i feel like i was physically but not mentally with them. i hope someone understands. it is really tiring for me to continue this.