tell me why do i have to be so brutally blunt when it comes to nervous, over sensitive and probably craziness over powering me. why do i have to be so straight forward but not meaning it in the way time to other people. i am so sorry. i do not have the mood to care what is going on around me, happening on me. i feel lifeless. everything seems too fast forward for me to catch up.i really need a break from everyone. now i am having a headache, i don't feel like caring my homework but i am force to do it. why do things have to turn out this way. it seems as if i have know something unacceptable in my heart, as if i have not yet accept that i have been disliking her, probably jealous over her. what's the use, she has her own imperfection that i have better then her and she has more perfect compared to mine. what's the fuss about? i really need to get a grip, i must make myself spin with the world along and catch up.
i am counting to the days on how long can i survive the wonderful world of disastrous, i am really breaking into million pieces